writing for this year’s Parents Suck At Buying Games like
The same person continually sends me the same message to me over and over and over to “practice what I preach” because of some shitty jokes I made years ago (and that I talk about social justice now, making me a hypocrite). I fully acknowledge I’ve been a problematic white privileged piece of shit in my life, though. At the time, I thought they could simply be humor because if you make fun of everyone “it’s okay.” It’s not.
This was not an easy concept to get. The world of comedy is extremely defensive about being able to say what it wants to (I’m also from a conservative, rural area and to be honest, there are times in my life where I literally had no fucking idea what being a liberal is other than supposedly the worst thing possible). The trick is completely getting that comedians and the comedy world (and people you grew up around) are fucking wrong. I was fucking wrong. I talk about jokes, what I have done wrong with them, and how to make a joke without being an asshole rather often. I do not make jokes that are oppressive. Therefore I practice what I preach. Please stop trying to attack me. I have been a piece of shit in the past. I am sorry for it, and I hope more importantly I have proven that I have learned from it.
Ashleigh asked me the other day if I regret problematic videos I’ve made in the past. I said no, I regret being problematic but I don’t regret making videos which are wrong. There is no better way to learn than to be wrong.
A white person has the privilege of ignorance to how dangerous their own words are. We have the privilege to learn what we’re doing rather than simply just know how poisonous white people (mostly) are. We have the privilege to choose the right path. We aren’t forced down any single road, and that’s why so many of us are just walking trash. We have all that, but we have a responsibility to be better and I’m taking it seriously.
I accept that you are angry at me. I have been wrong about things and I will be wrong about more things. They won’t be the same things, though, and things I make will not be aimed at anyone who is oppressed. I’m sorry I offended you enough to follow me around for years and post hate messages. I really am.
I have learned and I do practice what i preach. I am proud to be a hypocrite because the old ways are shit. Turning my back on anything like that and acting/speaking the opposite is at least trying not to be part of the problem.
I see (smug) people often saying things along the lines of “Stop blaming society, it’s so stupid. The only way to change society is to change yourself.” If we could feed on ignorance like this, the world would not be hungry. Society has nothing to do with me. If I change myself, you know who knows about it? A tiny amount of people who might notice. Some family and some friends who may not agree. Or care. You could disprove gravity and people close to you would be like “but he doesn’t shave enough.”
When you improve yourself, do you know what happens to society? Nothing. You are not society. You are an individual. If tons and tons and tons of individuals got better, society still wouldn’t, because society is a collaborative thing. Society is not 50 different people in their houses acting better. Society is 50 people in the same place and how they act to each other.
"I believe it’s alright, I just don’t like it" is maybe better than being a straight bigot, but how does that play in a room where people you HAVE to interact with are whatever "it" is?
"So you don’t like me? I don’t like you." How’s that shit working out for you in a room with people you look down on but because you think you’re an American you think that you think they should be allowed to. Yeah, that’s the concept of America and I often use it as an argument because it’s the BARE MINIMUM REASON bigotry shouldn’t be tolerated. But try to tell a man who sucks dick that you just don’t want men who suck dick around you because it’s ucky but it’s okay because it’s a free country but ew, gross, ugh, yuck, VOMIT.
They’ll probably suck you (metaphorically, not physically, despite what homophobia makes you think) because you’re a dick.
You acting better in your life is isolated. You are not spreading the ideas causing you to act better and therefore you are not collaborating. There’s no consensus being reached. You are not sharing your experiences. Working on YOU is working on YOU. Hell yes, you should. Just don’t pretend it makes everything in the world better, because there is no person who is the actual center of the universe.
Changing society is writing angry posts on your blog and sharing them with as many people as possible, especially people who disagree. Changing society is making signs and holding them in high-traffic places. Changing society is not leaving well enough alone. It’s not isolating yourself and saying “well I believe in freedom so I’m with the good guys” because you are not.
You’re not with the bad guys, either. You’re not acting as part of society by working on yourself. You are working on yourself. Work on society too, please.
Every god damn website on the internet is making me change my password because my email is on that list of leaked gmail passwords, but I used that utility to check it and the password that got leaked is a really old one I do not use anymore. In other words, I shouldn’t have to try to figure out a new password for all these sites I already have like a huge password filled with caps and numbers for.